Why I have Been Gone

In June of 2018, I suffered a mental collapse brought on me by stress and an undiagnosed mental health condition. It had caught me by surprise that I had gone from going along to massive mood swings, mild paranoia, and hyper-alertness. By August, my beautiful wife convinced me to go to the VA and speak with a mental health professional, and it turns out that I had Bipolar disorder. Since June, my life has completely changed.

What Happened

In 2010, I served eight months in Afghanistan and to put it mildly; it was packed full of stress, anxiety, and sheer terror at times. Since getting married and having children, I have always struggled with my temper.

June was a turning point for both good and bad. I had come home from work and collapsed in my chair and suffered a fit of sheer fury for no reason which slammed into a high manic state which scared me. Susanna, my sweet, long-suffering wife, talked me through it and told me with no uncertainty that I needed to speak with someone and recommended the Veterans Affairs. She thought it was the best choice as the visit would be free (due to me having a combat badge from the war) and they would be more understanding of the things that I experienced.

My doctor found that I was Bipolar and that what I thought was part of the PTSD was something entirely different and that I had to change a lot of my life around to consider this. That was why I disappeared; I needed to figure out how my online presence was going to be now that I know what’s going on and have the support to get through it.

Why Am I Saying All Of This?

Mental illness has been shoved in the corner far too long which has allowed horrible people to treat those with mental illness as second class citizens that should be locked away and forgotten. Because of people spending so many years refusing to talk about mental health, it has been regulated to the world of mystery, and when someone mentions it, others get uncomfortable.

I’m not going to do that. It’s a part of my life I now understand as best as I can, and it’s something I will talk to people about if they want to listen. If it makes someone else with a mental illness comfortable and to know that I can relate as much as feasible, then I feel that I have done something right.

If anyone watched my Twitter feed, they would have seen the gift I got for my wife as a thank you which turned out to be so much more. Susanna and I have liked the Teen Titans show, and I found that my favorite voice actor who voice Susanna’s favorite character Raven (this would be the wonderful Tara Strong). I discovered that Ms. Strong had a profile on Cameo and requested her to do a positive message from Raven.

What we got not only helped cheer my wife up but made me realize that other people understood. Ms. Strong could have done something basic, but the recording felt like she took the time to figure out what Raven would have really said.

So, besides making me realize that I’m not alone in supporting those with mental illness (and making sure I’m an ardent Tara follower), I knew that it was essential to speak out and that’s what I’m going to do.

What is the future?


I’m coming back. There are a lot of projects that have sat on the shelf for half a year, and it’s time for me to get them done. I have a few more novellas, adventures, and even a program coming out soon. There is also the new Star Traveler #4 book in the work!

Thank you for listening and make sure to look to those with illnesses and let them know they are safe and supported.

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I’m going on Hiatus for Awhile

Jennifer Tracy ready for the hiatusI never wanted it to happen, but there is nothing I could do about it. I am going on hiatus. For the last two years, my life has become more and more stressful with family health issues, my own personal and professional responsibilities and the inevitable appearance of burn out. Writing has become extremely difficult, and even this blog post has drained what little creativity I have.

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Now Utilizing Book Ratings!

It all started with a comment from my wife who was going through Amazon. She was looking for a book for our boys and was a bit irritated that we couldn’t get an idea and that we should have ratings like fan fiction websites do. I thought it was a brilliant idea and decided to do some research and found fictionratings.com.

They have an MPAA like system that was pretty self-explanatory though most of the website was a single page. As I have wanted a rating system for my books so people know what they are getting into, I have decided to adopt the fiction rating system on my website.

For all the books, you will now be able to find out where they are sitting before you pick them up!

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YWriter6 – The Software I develop All my Stories in

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Just a little while ago I was talking to my best friend Jessica Werner about the software that we use to write our novels. If you have been in the writing world long enough, you know there are quite a lot of options out there ranging from the simple pen and paper to the complicated and advanced Scrivener.

It dawned on me that I haven’t shared the program that I use to write my novels and novellas and why I like it. So, to rectify that mistake, here is my discussion and review of Ywriter6.

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Yep…Creativity has a limit and I found it.

I had a strange and ill feeling when I finished The Bastion at the Edge of the Universe, and I did not like what it boded. I remember putting together the last of the Ebook, staring at the screen as it uploaded to Draft2Digital and said to myself. “I’m burnt out.”

There. I said it. Words that, once spoke, make me exhausted and sick feeling. I feel like every ounce of creativity has been drained and then some. It had gotten so rough that I couldn’t even bring myself to look at the next story and even begin typing. This blog is a struggle to get done.

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The Bastion at the Edge of the Universe – Released!

Gosh, I love to write.

I also know that I’m stating the obvious but as I sit back and look at the new novella I release, I can’t say that I don’t enjoy the satisfaction of going from 0 to complete. There is just something about seeing my work out there and gives me a sense of accomplishment.

That being said, I am happy to announce the release of The Bastion at the Edge of The Universe, a pulp influenced story that I started back in 2014 on the now-defunct Jukepop series website and finally got completed (cause the story needed to be completed).

You can, of course, find them in their usual spot through the universal book link or on smashwords.com.

I would love to hear your input even if you don’t like it. I can’t improve unless I get feedback and even if you read it and don’t say anything, I appreciate you taking the time to download it.

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A Simple Guide: Bitcoin – Released!

A Simple Guide: Bitcoin

I love computers, anyone who knows me can attest to that. With my first initial introduction to bitcoin back in 2015, I decided to take my experience and write a simple guide to Bitcoin and how it actually works.

 

So, I am happy to introduce to you A Simple Guide: Bitcoin.

The purpose of this book is not to teach you how to get rich quick or give you a technical breakdown of the entire bitcoin exchange and market but to provide you a simple and easy-to-read introduction to the entire concept. I cover multiple things from the dangers of bitcoin to how it actually works (without the complicated cryptographic algorithms).

Interested? Why not grab a copy then! If you want to keep up with other works that I’ve done or future projects, you can do so by joining my spam-free newsletter that comes out once a month.

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