I never wanted it to happen, but there is nothing I could do about it. I am going on hiatus. For the last two years, my life has become more and more stressful with family health issues, my own personal and professional responsibilities and the inevitable appearance of burn out. Writing has become extremely difficult, and even this blog post has drained what little creativity I have.
What is Writer’s Block?
Writer’s block refers to the condition of being unable to think of what to write or how to proceed with writing. To have ideas we are unable to adequately convey can be extremely frustrating for novice and veteran writers alike. The problem is that it’s often carelessly tossed around to cover a plethora of creative obstacles.
I had a strange and ill feeling when I finished The Bastion at the Edge of the Universe, and I did not like what it boded. I remember putting together the last of the Ebook, staring at the screen as it uploaded to Draft2Digital and said to myself. “I’m burnt out.”
There. I said it. Words that, once spoke, make me exhausted and sick feeling. I feel like every ounce of creativity has been drained and then some. It had gotten so rough that I couldn’t even bring myself to look at the next story and even begin typing. This blog is a struggle to get done.
For years I have always heard stories about backing up your work and making sure that it is in a safe place and it is something I have practice for quite awhile. The part that hurts in ways is that the day you get on to do your regularly scheduled back up is the day your hard drive decides to die.
By most standards, I am not a successful writer. That sounds like a depressing way to start an author blog but bear with me to the end. Why we write is very important and it has been something I have worked through for the past few weeks. I know what I tell people when they ask me but is that really why I write?
Written for my beloved wife Susanna, my Moon Queen. Without her, there would be no reason to get up in the morning.
Have you not heard of the Sun King and the Moon Queen? How those two share horizons and love each other more than anything in the world? No? Sit down, get comfortable and I’ll tell you about them.
As long as we can remember, the Sun King and Moon Queen have been on opposite sides of the world. When the King was reigning over his subjects, he shone brightly upon the hardworking, the crops, and always talked the clouds into giving us their rain. He loved those below who looked up to him.
At night, the Moon Queen watched over us as they slept, safeguarding their livestock and showing her light upon those who meant harm to the people. For what the King provided in the day, the Queen kept protected at night.
Now, these two loved each other more than anything known. The stars still talk about how much the two love each other even when they do not see each other. Sometimes the King would get a glimpse of his lovely bride coming over the horizon and sometimes the Queen would sing out a note of fondness as the King dipped below the sky that divided them. Even though these moments were fleeting, the King would never despair that he did not have his Queen and the Queen knew that even those she missed him and they did not see each other, he still loved her more than anything.
Days, months, years would roll by with each waiting for that twilight moment to speak to each other, to whisper loving words across the sky before the other was taken to the other side of the world.
Doesn’t sound fair, does it? They did not think it was either, but they loved those upon the ground so much, they would sacrifice their time together to let them have food to eat and a safe bed to sleep in.
There are times though when the sky is able to hold them both. The Sun King and the Moon Queen are able to stay away from the edge of the air and to see each other. There loves becomes so powerful as they grow closer that the sky dims and the ground becomes patterned with flecks of light and dark mingled together. The world becomes quiet, enraptured in their love and breathless with anticipation.
When they meet, it is a meeting of fire and darkness, powerful love that fills the sky with burning fire while chilled and murmured with darkness. I mean, look now! See how the sun wraps his arms around his queen? Their love is eternal. Nothing can break them apart. No matter how long they stay alone, they will always meet each other in the sky and embrace filled with happiness and excitement to be able to converse once again.
You chuckle? Why? Cannot love last forever? The sun and the moon have met more times than we can count. They have looked over all of us together with loving eyes. Something you should take to heart, my good fellows, even apart, they are powerful and in love and there is nothing anyone can do to destroy that. They will always meet in the sky, and they will always love each other to the day the world ends.
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I am a momma’s boy. I’m proud of it and tell everyone who asks. Honestly, I’m not sure why that’s considered an insult. When it comes to my mother, I would not be a writer if it was not for her.
For the past few weeks, my wife and I have been talking about things from our childhood that have made us who we are today. The books we’ve read that changed our outlook on life and even our tastes.
I think one area of the writing world that gets a lot of flak is the fan fiction world. If you were like me (before my scolded me), I felt that Fan fiction was the dregs of the writing world. I not only found out that was unfair but rather cruel to the hard-working writers who live and thrive in that world. I’ll admit, I was one of those “writing snobs” until my beautiful wife put me in my place.
Fan Fiction is Real Writing
Writing is writing. I never thought fan fiction was more than self-gratification until my wife began to tell me some of the stories that she had read. I could not believe how much detail and dedication that fan fiction writers have put in to their works. There was even a story that was over a million words! I’ve never broken fifty thousand, let alone a million.
There is a lot of dedication to the fan fiction world, more than maybe some of freelance writers have ever put in to our own work. Even though it’s not an original world, many of the stories bear the blood, sweat, and tears of a dedicated writer.
It’s No Different than a Professional or Aspiring Author
When in terms of dedication and being a writer, fan fiction writers are exactly the same as a professional or aspiring author. Many writers, including myself, got started in other people’s worlds and pour the same amount of dedication and heart in to their works. Many times they do not have the ability to get an editor or professionally proof read their works.
Independent publishing can suffer the same amount of editorial error and proof reading mistakes since a lot of us are in the same boat as a fan fiction writer. Unless we’re established with a decent fan base, many of us cannot afford hiring an editor.
They have feelings too
Fan fiction writers are people just like you and me and the horrible amount of critique I have seen from other authors is saddening. There are people behind the story no matter how bad or good it is. To attack a writer’s work is never acceptable. That is why critique is important and should be taken seriously. They deserve the same amount of feedback as we do.
Fan Fiction Writers are a strong knit community
And I am glad of that. My wife has given me a tour of the fan fiction world and they care for each other a lot. They have the advantage of not only having the bonds of being a creator of fan fiction, they also have the love for the world they are writing in.
So the next time you see a fan fiction story, why not give it a shot and if you find issues, give feedback like you would any writer of any story.