The Curse of Being a Writer

Ever since I was twelve years old and my mother gave me my dad’s old college typewriter, I told myself and everyone who was willing to listen to me that I was going to become a writer. Now, at the old age of twenty-nine, I look at what I have done and wonder if I ever accomplished my goal and if it was even possible.

Being an author is not a blessing as you might think, but more of a gilded curse. I have heard many aspiring authors say that they want to write, tell stories, and to make money, but I just shake my head and think to myself that they really do not understand what it means to be one. For me, writing is something that I have to do. I must tell a story no matter what and even when I cannot write because of a mental block or that I am tired, I find myself writing little notes in my book or even posting to this blog. 
To all you aspiring writers, writing will infect your soul. You will have the burning desire to write and it will consume you when you are not able to put those words down on paper. Am I trying to scare you off? No, not at all. I love being a writer, even if sometimes I feel that the stories in my mind are trying to rip their way out. I am in love with that feeling when you have a clear cognizance and are able to spend the next two or three hours just penning what you want. For me, it has become rare because of my real world responsibilities, but you cannot beat the feeling of accomplishment and love as you bring a character to life on paper. 
Writing is such a big thing to me, sometimes I worry that it will take over and I will always be trying to devote time even if it really is an unending hobby. I mean, when do you decide, “I’ve written enough stories, I’m done.” That never happens. 
So, to all you writers out there, keep up what you are doing. You are not alone in the uncontrollable urge to tell some story. As you hunch over your laptop putting out yet another fan fiction, or essay, or article, realize that you are not alone and someone else has admitted they have the addiction of words. And then say a pray for them. 

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